Dear Sweet Pea

Dear Sweet Pea,

I was thinking about how we are each born perfect, an unblemished spirit that is clean and new; and I was considering the purpose of that spirit. Is it the challenge of sorting through life with all its pleasures and atrocities, you know, if you get to the other end and die at a ripe old age you win; or is it more of a spiritual experience meant to exist in peace and rise above the worldly events? In other words, is the journey of life to conquer the ego or to study it? Either way it intrigues me that we associate our identity with the projections of parents, siblings, friends and acquaintances in our early formative, and most influential years. These assessments are monikers labeling their interpretation of our traits and characteristics. Unable to view ourselves objectively, we inevitably wear that image appointed to us. Over time our self-perception becomes blurred and we feel inner turmoil from reconciling our appointed labels with calling of our own soul.

What are these traits that others focus on? They may be the way we react to circumstances. They may be our appearance or our affinity to colors and style. They may be the inflections of our voice and our preference for sleep. Anything that measures us as humans within the scope of our particular social surroundings considered to be the norm. However, remember that every separate environment carries its own set of standards; so what is a norm in one region may be seen as obscure in another. This illustrates the ridiculousness of trying to “fit in” in social situations in general.

Our associated, projected identity creates a dichotomy in the human spirit that causes a split of extremes in order to create a balance, an equilibrium that allows us to function in society. This balance is basically narcissistic in nature and the varying degrees of common unpleasantness depend on one’s personality. Subsequently, one subconsciously ploughs through events behaving as trained, yet fights one’s self internally to the true principles of one’s own spirit. We sublimate the primitive calling of our heart and alienate our connection with the universal spirit. In other words, through denial and diversion we keep ourselves dumb. If we can keep ourselves distracted with the petty thoughts and events of everyday life, we never have to answer to that deeper calling of our soul.

Some examples may be a person can be very sensitive emotionally yet fiercely determined, or morally weak yet very ritualistic so they find a way to manage, but it’s day-by-day, minute-by-minute. More often than not these dichotomies manifest themselves physically in our bodies. A person may suppress the chastisement in youth for being too thin by caring extra weight as an adult. A shy person may act out in outrageous or inappropriate outbursts; of course because the cause is buried within the subconscious, the shy person doesn’t realize, recognize or take responsibility for their outrageous behavior. Likewise, the overweight person can diet forever and remain overweight because they don’t recognize the source of there condition. Until they reconcile the hurt, as in our example caused by teasing, they will care the emotional baggage, literally on them.

An interesting aside to this is the industry of our society for those of us fortunate enough to afford it, are cosmetology, and cosmetic surgery. We can now change every aspect of our genetically inherited traits from hair and eye color to gender. I think the only thing we can’t change yet is skin color, but I ‘d be will to bet there is someone working on it at this very moment. Still these are just physical remedies masking emotional issues that are easier and faster, but are the way of the world today.

At some point in our lives it seems it would be beneficial to listen to that inner voice that has been nagging at us; that feeling of unexplained grouchiness, that arises from being unacquainted with your heart. Every moment of every day it beckons to us to pay attention but heeding it is easier said than done, however this is where the answer to your true purpose lives. So when you peel away the layers of the identity associated with you by your environment, who is revealed? Perhaps that’s to daunting to face at first, and the fear of facing that has stopped many from attaining their spiritual awakening yet we must have courage to follow that voice. Yes, voice. When you realize that you can hear your own spirit communicating with you, you get a hint that you are not in this alone. You are connecting to the universe. You’ll start to learn that the soul does not see people, only other souls; that you are connected to every living thing, plants, insects, earth, as well as the creator.

This opens the door to some very interesting thoughts. In searching for your purpose, or the course of your journey, you don’t necessarily need to change friends, or professions or move from your home. It’s bigger than that because it’s an infinite well of abundance waiting for you, an each and every one of us, to discover on the inside of yourself. It’s not about sacrificing your belongings or financial security because we are in this world to live, comfortably. How? With love. Perhaps the journey is studying the ego as well as conquering it. At every level the horizon gets wider yet not so far away. You realize that the same ocean, when touching many shores changes name, yet it is still the same ocean. The earth is small and round and loves us all. Life on this earth for us is short. Most importantly is that I have you, my wife, my lover, my spiritual sister, my friend, my partner, to share this life with. I am a part of your journey as you are a part of mine so we are one in the same separated by a microscopic electrical charge. I love you.

Bubbie